Catastrophic Accident! What To Do!?


This actually happened during the holidays.  I'm having a hard time dealing with it.  I've owned my Music Reference RM9 amp for over 15 years.  While replacing a fuse, something I've done easily over 2 dz. times thru the yrs, The amp tipped over.  Long story short, the way the unit fell damaged/smashed most of the tubes (12 in total!).  Man, seriously, I practically feel like I've lost a member of my family!  I've been in contact with Roger Modjeski at Ram Labs and they've been 100% supportive even though I'm not the original owner.  But the dilemma is substantial, the amp can be repaired no doubt, but to transport it from S. Fl. to Ca., plus tube replacement, plus possible other repairs.  Not sure it makes dollas & sense.  The fact is I'm not the youngster I was when I 1st acquired the gear, plus being retired the money ain't what it used to be.  This accident has seriously got me considering whether I should continue with the hobby.  The gear, 1000's of records and CD's somehow, suddenly feels like a bit much.  I've been into the gear for 35+ yrs. but I've been a music-lover my entire life, I'll never stop listening....but maybe it's time to downsize?  Ram Labs has offered help in testing, and/or repairing, and even offered the alternative of selling the unit for parts.  Tremendous support!  I think I'd be able to sell it but I just can't bring myself to go down that road, not yet.  So into the 'spares' closet she goes, and since I don't have another amp, it's headphone time!  

Here's hoping y'all have a safe and incident-free New Year!
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@gregf1 
Problem is, very few people have a HO 5. 95%+ will have a HO 3 with named perils on contents. 
I also wonder why so many fuse replacements? I thought MR gear was reliable and did not blow fuses regularly? 
I’ve owned many amps over the years and have never had to replace a fuse. You would be better off getting another amp and putting that one into your spares closet!
I understand the emotion of the OP, but when calms down, I would suggest:
1) Go solid state-no tubes to break, bias, etc.
2) If Physical Media is getting to be to much, move it to a server
3) Investigate Streaming Services-with Quobuz, now there will be at least two High Rez services to choose from.
  Remember that you got into this hobby because you love Music and love hearing it reproduced faithfully.  There are lots of ways to do this on a retiree income and with less stress.
  And yes, we have all made stupid, expensive mistakes.  No one does this on purpose—they are called accidents for a reason.  Don’t be so hard on yourself