I feel very sorry for you Griswold, I have been there myself. Not much in life to enjoy when your slaveing away your life for what can be taken from you tomorrow.
Take a bit of time and figure what is most important in life. You know, things like family, friends, freedom from the MAN who wants to own your ass. Peace of mind, all the money in the world can't buy that. I hope you can find peace of mind. Ain't no price tag can be put on that.
I wish you much success in finding out what is of most value to you.