Dear Karel; While most all we can offer has nothing to do with the real world;---You must look at yourself as having been blessed.With the divorce rate being what it is---most have never had what you had. Guys like me only wish we had;---So,again,you have to look at yourself as being blessed--- having been with this lovely woman for all that time. I guess it's time to look inside yourself; life goes on and find inner strength-- Oh, and maybe sometime watch one of my favorite movies: "Sleepless in Seatle". I'm sure you have it within you---you just need to find it. Oh, and music applied as needed;as the mood dictates.-God bless.